I realized a long time ago that Im not interested in being tamedby a partner.
Im fucking wild, and I like living my life that way.
Im not black-out-drinking-self-destructive wild (anymore). Im healthy wild. Like, Im addicted to pouring my heart out on the internet, and I physically cant tell a lie even if it means making an awkward situation less awkward.
I feel big feelings, Im expressive and I suffer from acute delusions of grandeur. I recklessly spend money, I like to use delicate words like fuck and pussy (in a sophisticated way, of course) and I like to stay out really late drinking shitty champagne in drag bars.
Everything I own is loud. My necklaces clanktogether when I walk. The chains on my boots make dinging sounds as they rub against each other. The heavy heels bang loudly against the ground. People often think a dog is running behind them, only to realize its just Zara and her loud AF jewelry.
People Ive dated are initially drawn to me for these exact reasons. They like the mess. The mess is fun. The mess has a shit ton of soul. The mess is what drives me to love them harder than theyve ever been loved before in their entire lives.
But eventually, they start to resent the mess. They want to clean that shit up and tame me like a zoo animal.
Ive been in a lot of relationships at this stage in the game, and I can see the shiny red flags from a mile away now. And when I see warning signs that some bitch is trying to tame me, I run like the god damn wind.
Tame, after all, is just a fancy way of saying, I WANT TO STEAL YOUR LIGHT and keep it for myself.
Only energy vampires attempt to tame people, and we dont date energy vampires, girls.
So, here are theofficial warning signs someone is trying to tame you:
1. They shame you for being the life of the party.
Look, if youre blacking out every night, thats one thing. But if youre just the life of the party, the clown that makes everyone laugh, the glitter, the glamour, the scandal or the babe of the evening, you should be celebrated, not shamed.
I always know someone is trying to change me when they say things like, Why do you have to talk to everyone all the time, Zara? or, Why do you need so much attention at the party? Why arent I ENOUGH?
And you know what? One person is never enough. And thats OK. Youre allowed to enjoy the attention of the masses. Youre allowed to sparkle, even when youre cuffed.
Because some women just radiate a certain energy and light that intoxicates a room, and to dull that down because your SO is threatened by its palpable power is a SIN.
2. They passive aggressively glorify other women.
You know Kate cooks dinner for Ryan every single night? Isnt that sweet? theyll say, their tone super condescending as they glare at you blissfully eating peanut butter straight out of the jar.
They say this as a subtle way to implyKate is domesticated and a better partner, and youre a stupid child eating peanut butter.
But you know what I say? Im not Kate, asshole.
Kate might cook dinner, but Kate has no personality, Kate has no spirit and Kate wouldnt drop everything for Ryan the moment hes having an emotional breakdown in the middle of the work day.
If you want Kate, date Kate. Because Ill never be Kate.Im Zara Barrie, bitch. And Katecant get down and dirty like Zara can.
3. They encourage you to listen to different music.
Nothing is as visceral as music. We like the music we like because it speaks to us on a deep level, and it knocks us out of our intellect and connects us to our hearts.
Which is why people who want to tame others are threatened by a womans love of her precious music. They will swoop in and undermine your taste.
Why dont you listen to the greats of the 60s? Why do you love Taylor Swift? Shes such a bimbo, theyll say, polishing off their annoying, pretentious records.
Look, I love Taylor Swift. She gets me, and I get her.
Youre just trying to control my mind by getting me to listen to music that fits your lifes agenda. And its not going to happen, honey.
Because I only date people who respect my taste in music. Because if you dont respect my taste in music, youre not respecting mymost raw feelings.
Music is what ~feelings~ sound like. Dont drown out the sounds of my feelings with the sounds of yours, you here?
4. They manipulate you with their families.
Well, you know, Zara, my family is REALLY conservative, so dont, uh, you know, be yourself.
Look, were all polite women. We know how to behave. But we also can read between the lines, sugar. When you say this, we know youre saying If you want to be part of my family, you need to tone yourself down.
Instead of being proud of our eccentricities and unique style, you want us to white wash it and youre using your family as a tool in your ploy.
Ive been around the block 30 times now, and Ive never met a mom who didnt like me. It was always the person using their fabulous mom as a threat to force me into changing my identity.
And it doesnt work.
5. They shame your sexuality.
Kittens, this is honestly one of the most heartbreaking things a human being can do to another human being. And I see it all the time, sadly.
Just the other day, my friend told me her boyfriend doesnt want her to talk about sex in her stand-up anymore. Shes a wildly sexual stand-up comedian, and her sexuality is a huge part of her entire identity.
He made her feel ashamed for being open about sex in her routine, telling her it was cheap.
Its happened to me, too. I had an ex who got mad at me when I told her I was turned on and wanted to sext. She tried to make me feel like I was some dirty, little sleaze because I wanted to SEXT.
Sex is such a core part of who we are, and its super vulnerable. When you share that vulnerable part of yourself and its a part of yourself thats strong and colorful and beautiful and your lovermakes you feel embarrassed for it, run.
And never look back.
Because thats the ultimate stealing of a persons light. Its the ultimate way of dulling a persons natural shine. Its the ultimate way to chip away at a persons individuality and control everything about them.
People who want to tame know your sexuality is such a powerful part of who you are. They know your sexuality is greater than them, thatits an energetic force of nature, and they dont like the energy because they dont like anything they cant control. And their mission is to control.
So, kittens, if any of these five red flags are appearing in your new relationship, message me. Because you clicked into this article, and I feel responsible for you now.
I wasted too much of my life with assholes who tried to tame me, and Ill never get that time back. I dont want that for you.
Youre so gorgeous and powerful just the way you are. Find someone who will add to your beautiful mess, not try and clean it up.
Because clean floors are nice, but clean, stale people are boring. And youre not boring. Dont let them make you boring.
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